'Two': An excerpt from a collection of ramblings from the soul

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I feel like I’m getting back to me.

The energy has shifted and I no longer feel like there’s this translucent haze existing in the world around me.

Maybe the haze represented every illusive fantasy that I created in my mind, manifested into this physical reality. Or maybe it was a different dimension, a type of ‘shadow world’ if you will.

A world in which chaos was magnified and exalted. A world in which I was not my own, but a slave to my own inner demons made real.

But things look so clear now.

Its funny, a cage can only become a cage when you forget that you have the power to see your way out. It’s almost like my life became a literal representation of the devil card.

Two lovers, held in chains that had no locks, existing in a mental prison that was only kept alive by the fear and resentment created in their own minds.

In this state you could tell me the Devil was anyone with a pulse and a spirit and I would believe you without a shadow of a doubt.

I guess I could say that my time in the ‘shadow world’ taught me everyone was living in some type of illusion, and everyone thought that their illusion was the truth.

But what really is truth?

Truth became relative. Truth became paradoxical and contradictory. Truth became mystical and synchronistic. Truth got disproven and disillusioned every single time.

To say that I learned the importance of intuitive discernment real quick is an understatement. Because in the realms of the shadow world, nothing was concrete. Everything was ever-changing and every second was an opportunity to get humbled by Spirit.

And who knows, maybe the more I write about a time of what was, I’ll get less cryptic and more trusting of the memories in my mind.

I’m still recovering from my time in the abyss.

This is the testimony of how I made it through.